Vegee - Sdrlrwsl

RED/ORANGE

I don’t know if it’s getting slower or faster today.
Cold one today
I could almost make out the smell
I know I stumbled on it
We were driving back to your hometown
It was late, nighttime
The pretty leaves and tall rocks have now settled to bed
They’re still tall although not as pretty
They’ve covered themselves in black blankets
They look thick
Like if the tall rocks and pretty trees took it off and put it on me
My knees would probably fold
But that’s okay,
It looks better on them.
see the tree
They’re now black clouds

LOST IN LASSCASSASS

It was only me
Happened to me only
happy it was
i stumbled late in
I’ve missed it so
Halls full of their low humming chatter
lungs full of air i’ve missed so
to be honest i didn’t think i’d see you
you’re so you like so
i never know you like so
to be honest i wanted it to only be me
finally only me you know
but i walk into the four corners
far away i am met by you
there you are
“fuck” i muttered
no thoughts, i tried not to wait
the whole while i’m pacing in place
i thought it was only me
i was so happy it was
i don’t know what to do now again
i tried to help it
my eyes still doesn’t listen
“fuck” i whisper again
like a loose screw being grinded to work
i;m feets away again
you walked past me
i was only confused for a second, i started back up
you were outside now the bell had rung
stopped every which way along your trail
not this again, i don’t want to lose your scent again
i got outside
all i did was stay
frozen still
i couldn’t mouth words
the green bright field of grass seemed too small to fit us both
it kept getting closer
pushed me away
draining the air i freshly got
the same field we rode on and on on
with your orange bicycle and mine golden bright
you lost in lasscassass and then i’m back
so who is he
my head dropped
you said nothing
you walked past me
past the streets we ran on
the scene we played on
it wasn’t to fetch our bicycles the sun had beamed and beaten on
you picked up your ball and returned
you walked past me
you lost in lassscassass and then i’m back
i did it right, it worked
so who is he
i wish i shouted it instead i froze still
the pacing stopped
my heart did too

episode eleven (ARIEANNA’S POEM)

lips tied shut
compassion lets in
not for myself but for everyone else
how can i be so selfish
i can’t ask for help
worthless, useless, tired and drained
on these days i lack everything that’s sane
unworthy feelings follow as sadness creeps through my mind
everything i seem not to be
or the seem to be
only so much helping i can do myself
caution
i’m barely surviving
but i’m the strong friend
strong daughter
strong lover
strong enough to see the end
body becomes heavy
unknown triggers overtake
tearing me down
all over and everywhere
i only have symptoms to show
teary eyed praying for those close
in the midnight hour a knock awakens my heart
breaking my wish to sleep
these hours of operation becoming too much for me
becoming all to familiar to me